Throughout history, there have been moments that have redefined the boundaries of what the human race understands to be our species limitations.  Acts of valor, athleticism, and unthinkable bursts of superhuman strength that have shattered the glass ceiling of what we believed to be the imposed difference between reality and fable.  One man single-handedly killing fifty Nazis, flying through the air at bird like heights and dunking over the competition, or pulling a truck with nothing but a penis.  Regardless of the arena, there have always been extraordinary people accomplishing extra-ordinary things.  Solidifying their legacy and carving out a place in time to forever be remembered.

This is not one of those occasions.

In fact, this is the exact opposite of one of those occasions.  The only reason those occasions are even being referenced in this story is because they served as the failed motivational material during my own battle of inner personal strength.  Which if you couldn’t tell by the title of the post, I fucking FAILED!

It was a hot and muggy night in the small town of Santa Marta, Colombia.  We had been on the road for only a couple of weeks and the digestive transition into the local cousin was still in its testing stages.  We had been keeping ourselves skinny by cooking our own meals in the hostel.  The complex and tantalizing recipes were comprised of chopped up potatoes and vegetables or spaghetti on occasion, you know, to mix it up.  All meals were accompanied by a dousing of stolen butter or oil (what ever was available in the community kitchen at the time) and a large portion of hot sauce for choking down purposes.

I should preface the story by making my love for hot sauce fully understood.  My serving of hot sauce exceeds that of three average men combined.  So when I say a large portion of hot sauce, I mean holy-shit is there even any fucking food hiding under that puddle large portion of hot sauce (Side note:  I once kept a tally of the amount of Sriracha sauce I consumed over a one year period.  It totaled around six gallons.  That means my shit was the color of blood for over twelve months and what I considered a “normal” bowel movement would send most running straight to the emergency room.

I digress.

We had tried a few restaurants since arriving in country.  But at our price point the meals didn’t provide much more satisfaction then our own “home cooking”.  They usually consisted of a meat (of your choice) that appears to have been run over by a truck, some french fries that have been cooked in four week old oil, and a single four inch by four inch piece of welted lettuce.  Between our cooking and their cooking, my poor stomach was on the verge of implosion (or rather explosion, as the title of the story eludes to).

The meal out was a big deal for us.  This would be the first meal out that we completely disregarded our daily budget (an impulse we quickly turned into routine).  As with any celebratory occasion, a well lubricated state of mind was a necessity.  The pre-drinks of rum carried us right into the arms of several beers and a bottle of wine at the restaurant.  Three rounds and a bottle of wine before a food menu was ever even opened.

Once we did eat, we treated the meal like it was our last and made sure we left the restaurant feeling like a it was Thanksgiving.

Not wanting to miss out on an opportunity to completely overindulge, we had the taxi stop in front of a mall that was close to our hostel to grab some ice cream.

Fatty said what?

Uh, what?

I had made it about five steps from the curb when my stomach did a round house kick to my asshole.

It caught my asshole completely off guard.  But thankfully, failed to deliver a knock out blow.  Pun intended.

Needless to say, my asshole was stunned.  He was looking for his corner, hoping the round was over, just trying his best not to take another crippling blow, that would surely knock him out.

The blood left my face as the reality of the situation smothered my buzz and created a small amount of panic.  I did a quick mental inspection of the severity of the situation.

I didn’t take a shit this morning. . . . hmmm. . . .   That means things are pretty backed up. Last night was spaghetti. . . . . that means industrial amounts of hot sauce is mixing around, lubing the sides of my stomach like a fucking bobsled track. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .  and that big ass meal I just shoved down my fat face is the fucking Jamaicans from Cool Runnings. . . . The Jamaicans crash man!  The Fucking Jamaicans Crash! 

I exhaled a short breath of determination, balled my hands into two tightly clenched fists, squeezed my asshole harder than a pedophile walking the yard on his first day in prison, and made my way toward the mall.  Thankfully I was familiar with its layout and knew exactly where the closest bathroom was located.

See, look at the positive.  You know where you are going.  You know where you are going and your close.  Four football fields?  Maybe five?  You can do this! . . . . you CAN do this!!  You . . . . can. . . . hopefully . . . . hope, hope, hopefully fucking. . . . .  do this? 

I made it half way to the mall entrance when I had to make my first pit stop. The motion of walking was causing my stomach to become more unsettled.  I came to a halt and simultaneously squeezed my asshole with every ounce of energy my body possessed.

I did a little shuffle / wobble step, as I tried to keep my guts lodged next to my heart while again making my way toward the mall.  My lips pursed, as the realization that the battle was just beginning caused a slight relaxation of defeat to overcome me.

(Gurgle gurgle gurgle)

OH-FUCK-NO!

I launched into brisk and robotic style walk toward the mall entrance.  I must have looked like a North Korean Soldier marching in fast forward.  I even carried the same look of despair and submission, causing my eyes to become glazed and distant.

I made it to the door and I leaped toward the handle like a fat kid dashing for candy at a parade.  The excessive force I used to open the door almost caused it to smack against the building.  My pace quickened as my hand subconsciously made its way to my ass hole.  The childish cup of the outside of my pants somehow strengthening my sphincters ability to maintain its watertight hold.  I tried to distract myself as I stormed toward the food court.

Just don’t think about it.  It is mind over matter.  You don’t think about it.  Don’t think, don’t think, don’t think.  There is not a massive shit about to burst out of your guts in the middle of the fucking mall.  You are not a grown man who is about to shit his pants.  I will not shit my pants, I will NOT shit my pants, I WILL NOT SHIT MY PANTS!!!

. . . . . . . . . . . Oh fuck. . . . . I might shit my pants. . . . . . . . no,no,no,no. . . . . oh fuck………………………..maybe? 

Another painful pause and wincing look of distress as I tried to keep from dumping a gallon of shit down the side of my leg onto the mall floor.  I squeezed my ass with every ounce of energy my body possessed.  I could have turned coal into fucking diamonds I was squeezing so hard!

The pressure that was being placed on my inner thighs was causing a small collection of sweat to congregate in my ass crack and create a warm foreshadowing for what now seemed to be the inevitable conclusion to this nightmare.

Men have lifted cars off of children, been shot several times but still charged the enemy, we have survived beatings, starvation, run marathons.  If the body and the mind are capable of such amazing feats, then surely, fucking SURELY it can enable me to make it the last hundred-fucking-yards to the mother-fucking-bathroom!

I frantically charged into men’s room located at the corner of the food court. My bewildered eyes darted around the room until I finally found an open stall.  I shuffled in, locked the door, and scrambled to unbutton my pants. . . . . .

I have replayed what happened next a million times.  Analyzing, scrutinizing, judging. Wondering why oh fucking why did this happen?

Now that I am over a year removed from the situation I can say with full confidence the exact moment, the exact action, the exact point where I failed myself so God-Damn HORRIBLY!

It was the transition.

Simple.

A poorly executed transition.

The transition of asshole clench to ass cheek clench.

In hindsight, I don’t even know why I made the move?

Maybe it was a lapse in judgement brought on by the high stress situation?  The fact that no matter how long you have been holding it, your body just seems to know when your close to the bathroom and insists on shocking you with its final alarm.

DEFCON 1 is here bitch, the world is ending alarm.

It was the transition.

The release.

The relaxation of the asshole and squeeze of the ass cheeks that caused it to happen.

The shit came, and it came with a force.

The clenching of the ass cheeks caused it flow out like water from a hose when a thumb is placed over the opening.  It-went-E-V-E-R-Y-W-H-E-R-E!  Running down both legs, into my shorts, the back of the toilet, the floor, the wall.  Yeah, that’s right. The mother fucking wall!

I was shocked.

This is impossible.  This just doesn’t happen.  This is not real.  This is not real.  This is not-fucking-real!

That is when the smell smacked me with almost as much force as I delivered to the back of the wall with my hot sauce propelled excrement.

Oh fuck!  This is real!  This is real!  This is real . . . . This is real and now I have to deal with it.  This is real, and now, now I have to deal with it. Deal with it. . . deal with it. . . . deal with it. 

Lets do a quick analysis of what is going on.  I have shit myself.  I have shit myself in a very public place.  I have shit myself in a very public place and escaping from here unnoticed is impossible.  Ok. . . . at least I made it to the concealment of the stall.  I can do my best to organize myself here and then make a run for it.  Alright, I have a plan.  I just need to clean myself up as much as possible.  

Toilet paper, toilet paper, just need some . . . . . . . . toilet. . . . . . . . paper? 

For those of you that are not familiar with public toilets in Colombia, they have an interesting system in place to preserve the amount of toilet paper people use in a public restroom.  They place a large dispenser in the main area of the bathroom next to the sinks.  You simply grab the amount of toilet paper you think you will use on your way into the stall.  Something I had clearly neglected to notice in my mad dash for the stall.

I have no toilet paper, no socks (as I was in flip-flops) and my legs and shorts are covered in shit.  I need my shirt to obscure a small part of my now brown shorts and I have no toilet paper.

I – have – no – toilet – paper. . . . 

I made a slow turn to my left and my face contorted with a look of disgust.

There is another attribute to toilets in Colombia you first world readers might not be aware of.  They don’t flush their toilet paper, they toss it in a basket next to the toilet.

This is not happening.  This is . . . . is . . . . is . . . . is not happening.

I released a breath of self-pity and slowly extended my had down to the full basket of used toilet paper.  I slowly pulled at a piece of used paper from the basket to inspect it.

Thankfully Colombians seem to be better planners than myself and use excessive amounts of shit paper when tending to their backside.

One careful whip turned into two, two into three, and then I turned my pity party into a determined mission.  I became the terminator.  I no longer had any feelings about the situation, I was simply doing what must be done.  My speed increased as I skillfully rifled through the shit basket.  Selecting pieces of used toilet paper, deciding what part of my body and shorts would benefit the most.

triage.

Grab, wipe, toss, grab, wipe, toss, grab wipe, and toss. . . .

I was making progress, I was feeling like I might be able to get somewhat clean enough to make a mad dash without EVERYONE realizing why I was running.

Just a quick flush of the toilet to make some more room for my used, used, toilet paper.

And. . . . . . . hmmmmmm. . . . . . . .

That’s when it hit me.  I am taking used toilet paper from the used toilet paper bin.  I am using that used toilet paper again and then putting it in the toilet.  As soon as I flushed it I knew I was fucked.

Maybe, maybe, maybe?

I remember plugging the toilet when I was a kid.  It usually took two flushes to get the water to spill out over the bowl.  Surely fate has fucked me hard enough in this situation.  I must have the grace of the God’s over looking me, allowing this toilet to not to over flow.

Up.

Up.

Up.

Up.

And then it happened.  It more than just “happened”.

The water began to spill over the rim of the toilet bowl at a rapid pace.  It was a matter of seconds before I was standing in a puddle of flowing water.  I watched in horror as it quickly made its way out of my stall.  Creating an obvious trail of perpetration to my destroyed stall of humiliation.

I actually let out a small laugh.

I was shocked at the actual amount of water that was being dumped onto the floor.

I chuckled again.

This entire situation is . . . . crazy.  This does not happen in real life.

It was clear that my time for cleaning up had come to an end.  I can no loner hide out in the stall when Niagara Falls is re-routing its self out of my toilet.  I hiked my still-covered-in-shit-shorts up around my waist.  I slowly opened the stall door to face my public.

A janitor stood in the middle of the bathroom floor, his mop and bucket in hand, his eyes wide in disbelief.  Water was wrapping around is stagnant feet.  Clearly locked into place by what he now perceived as HIS worse fucking day ever!

Even in my disorientated state of emergency, I was still empathetic to what awaited him in my stall. . . and now the entire bathroom floor.  I actually reached my hand out, as if to take the mop and assist with this “shitty situation”.  His expression contorted even more as he watched my face go from concern (hand out), to the realization I have to fucking bounce, now!

My hand quickly moved away from the mop like a mean uncle ditching out on a high five with his retarded nephew.  Too slow Joe!!!! Or Jose!?  Carlos. . . .?

With that, I was fucking gone.  Channeling my inner Usain Bolt as I sprinted for the exit and the cover of night.

I barely had breath enough to give a soft shout to Sally.

“Sally!. . . . . Sally!. . . . We’re fucking going!”

As I pointed to the exit, not stopping to see if she understood.  I assumed that if I just continued to run out, she would eventually follow me.  I scrambled my way across the street and hideout under a tree.  When she finally caught up to me she began to ask what was going on?

“What . . . . . ?”

Her head cocked back quickly as she caught a whiff of my soiled shorts. . . and legs. . . and flip-flops.

Before she could even finish her question I cut her off with a stern look.

“The fucking worst”

“The fucking worst thing that has ever happened to me”

“That. . . . . is what happened”